Connecting, Disconnecting and Reconnecting

So much has happened, I don’t even know where to start.

I met a wonderful woman just before Xmas and we started dating pretty heavily. At least I thought it was heavy.

Sadly, she was not poly and could never get her head and heart around the fact that I was. We had a really nice DaddyDom/littlegirl dynamic going but, unfortunately, it wasn’t enough to overcome our other issues and we went our separate ways. Sigh. I will never forget her and hope she has found the man she deserves.

A few weeks ago, I had an incredible two night date with my Other Significant Other, Sassy Taffy. It had been months since I had seen her and we were long overdue to be with each other again.

She came to Toronto and we spent all Friday night falling back in love and rediscovering each others bodies. Saturday, however, was a very different mindset. I put our collar around her neck and did mean, nasty and depraved things to her for the entire afternoon. Sorry to the hotel staff for the blood stains on the carpet…

Saturday night is a blog post all in itself…or possibly even another short story….hot hot hot!!!

Sundays are always really hard for us. Sassy gets really sad and I get a serious anger vibe from her which I need to reprocess and realize is actually sadness, not anger. In short, leaving each other really really REALLY sucks.

Lastly, but certainly not least, when I went to MomentumCon in DC in April, my life changed.

I was planning on going to the con and sleep with everyone I wanted to and were willing. Big plans for threesomes, foursomes and moresomes… Manslut was in full force.

I had an amazing and fun night with a lady I had been crushing on for a couple years. Ever had SmartBalls in your ass? It feels really great but the pain when we pulled them out almost knocked me unconscious. Good times. 🙂

And then I met Jazalyn and everything changed. There was an instant, scary deep connection. Saturday was spent entirely in bed, experimenting with energy transfer (a very new experience for me), talking, learning and generally consumed with each other. All other dates, plans and conference sessions were cancelled…it was the most intense spiritual experience I have ever had. And it left me irreversibly changed.

With Jaz, I am continuing to explore the oogie boogie side of sex and BDSM…things like energy transfer and play, tantra, TPE…stuff that scares the crap outta me but I am fascinated with. I am even learning about crystals and Native spirituality. My head spins…

Still trying to sort everything out but I feel so in control of my desires and urges…it is so amazing. I have always been ruled by my libido. For the first time, I am my own Master.

Stay tuned to see how this plays out…

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